Author: laddertipper
Posted: Sat Sep 17, 2011 9:48 am
| substation wrote: |
| Thanks for the support everyone….I just woke up from a nap and it was the first time I thought about ‘relapsing’ I woke up in a horrible mood. I was trying to figure out why I was putting myself through such hell when I could just grab some sub from my cabinet and be fine within an hour. Well, I didn’t do it…but it was really really scary I guess being it was the first time I even remotely considered jumping back on. Ive been awake for about an hour right now and the feeling has pretty much passed. It’s even helping just typing right now. Im NOT going to give up! I’m basically half way through the ‘toughest’ part.
I’m now headed out for a bit for only the second time since Sunday. Im driving 45 minutes to Philadelphia to pickup my favorite pizza. Yes, I drive that long for this pizza I have been for years. It will give me some outside time and a treat for the end. On another note it’s funny because im someone who always watched what they ate but I could care less right now. Im eating whatever the heck I want during this withdrawal process! Anyway just checking in….thanks a lot for the words of encouragement, please keep them coming! PS: Romeo you got me thinking about McDonald’s breakfast the whole day now. Think that may be on the agenda for tomorrow. You think I can throw around your name for a discount? |
Dude, do you eat nails for breakfast? 
You blow me away with how dang tough you are. I’m just comparing you to other people who jump from high doses, but you know what they report, and you don’t need to hear about it. That may actually create symptoms. You should keep going like you’re going and tell yourself it’s not that bad. You know, Dr. Junig does report a few people who jump at very high doses, even higher than you, and have little to no w/d. Maybe that is what is happening to you! Maybe your are not poisoned with fear right now and feel like this is your decision, free and clear, so don’t see things through those negative glasses.
I’d be willing to bet you are inspiring lots of people with your attitude. No pressure, though. If you have a tough day, feel free to bitch. It will all be over at some point though. We are here for you.
laddertipper
