Author: rangcom
Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2011 3:51 pm
RyKat: I don’t know about you but it’s nice to see that someone is within 24 hours as me with Jumping. This morning was rough but I took your advice this afternoon. Driving to my parents house to grab my leftover clonidine, I switched on 90’s radio on Sirius and Black Box came on and took me back. This was 2 hours ago and I’m still feeling the effects of this. Can’t remember the last time I turned on my radio but it was long enough for my presets to reset 
Keep posting bud. If you need a friend I’m here to help you!
MSL: I don’t think you were trying to minimize what I am doing. Trust me! This is doable. Some, ok all of my posts have been relatively dismal, but I’m sure you, like everyone who is now on subs was once in wd from full agonist and that is way worse than this. I’m not saying jump now. Subs gave me my life back and My spiral didn’t turn upwards until I was on subs for a few months. I have read people saying that this drug is the devil but quite the contrary. Stay strong. This is a great resource but over the past few days I have found it almost as a support group unlike any other. You can do this and when you and your doctor feel like its your time to jump. I will be here to root you on!
Anyway, as you can probably tell I am doing pretty well right now. This thing is a crazy roller coaster and I’m sure there will be more downs but as long as I have the support of my Girlfriend, Family, and friends here on the forum. I know I can do it! Passed one of those U-Pick pumpkin places, which I haven’t been, since I started on opiates. I actually flash backed and thought of my childhood, for the first time in years. I feel emotionally charged and yea, I may be crying like a little sissy. I feel alive for the first time in years!! Keep the posts coming. You all are my motivation to stop!
