Author: StrangerInTheMirror
Posted: Tue May 31, 2011 12:47 pm
I saw my doctor today. I’m taking 1mg per day now, so I cut my old dose in half, and I’m making this script my last script!
I wanted the empowerment of choosing the ending of this chapter in my life. I learned a lot this past week. It was a MAJOR wake up call. I felt cornered since I was out of subs by accident, and that didn’t feel right to me at all. I know that this time around I will be a lot more Emotionally ready to say goodbye you orange little angel/devil. Being on Subs these past years have given me a lot of time to figure out what was really important in my life. I’m ready to learn how to live each day without any kind of pill.
I am 100% honest that I haven’t taken any opiates, smoked weed, or any drug during these past years, even when I would run out of pills, which happened quite often for a few days at a time. I’m very proud of where I am today, even though the rest of my life needs to get sorted out.
Now I need to become a part of society, make new friends, get a job, and work on finshing school. It is so scary, because I live in Maryland where it is way too f***ing expensive to move out and live by yourself without having a real career. I have the best family in the world, which is all I could ask for though.
