Author: laddertipper
Posted: Mon May 30, 2011 10:22 am
My initial thought is to tell you to start it again and taper lower. I hate hearing anyone is uncomfortable and I don’t believe it’s a good idea to be forced off Sub or even forced down on Sub. AND 2 mg is a lot to jump from.
However, you are through a good chunk of the acute stuff. I’ve tapered to less than half of what you jumped at, and if I try to go even one day w/o it, I get sick beyond belief. So, if you restart to avoid having w/d, you will need to taper very, very low. It may take you quite a while to wean yourself down to a dose low enough to stop without much trouble. Do you really want to deal with all that? You may be done with acute w/d in a few more days. If you restart, it could take you months to get down to a good jumping place. This is just what I’m thinking. However, I don’t believe there is any right way. It’s your choice. You are not choosing the wrong thing if you decide the depression is too much and you need to restart a small dose. You could probably start again at a tiny dose if you needed to. After days off, you wouldn’t need 2 mg! That’s for sure. .25 mg may hold you. You have to make this choice yourself. I like Hat’s idea of filling your script. I’d be sure to give it to your parents, though. If you have your script on hand, at least you have a back up plan in case you feel like it’s too much and you are going to go out and use. That would be the worst thing you could do.
I give you tons and tons of credit for what I know you must have gone through these past days. I hope you feel free to make the decision that is best for you and your physical and mental well-being. Only you really know what that is. Only you know whether you can handle this or whether it’s just too much. Take care of yourself!!! You are so young. Be proud that you got into treatment so early in your life. You have likely saved yourself some serious heartache.
laddertipper
