Author: bubblebobble
Posted: Fri Mar 02, 2012 1:05 pm
Well, since that last post there was one slip with opiates. 55 days after coming off suboxone a "social" function had me anxious and I found some sub, and took 2mg. Didn’t do much of anything as far as a high was concerned. But did make me feel crumby for the next week (didn’t sleep well at all!). Weird how we can re-instantiate withdrawals so quickly like that.
Since that slip, it has been 5,201 hours (217 days) without any opiates. It’s sometimes hard to realize how long it’s been. School has been extremely stressful. Working two jobs has kept me busy. It’s very seldom, but from time to time I do think about opiates. I’ll get a "flash craving" if you will. The strong and sudden impluse to use. Luckily they don’t last long. They normally subside in 1-2 min.
I have been smoking marijuana, and having the occasional glass of wine. The alcohol isn’t a concern for me, as I really don’t enjoy the feeling alcohol gives. And that in turn keeps me from drinking too much. I do love the taste of wine (and beer/cocktails/etc) though. The marijuana I need to cut back on, I got in the habit of having a nightly smoke before bed time. For the past few months this became all too routine and habitual. So I’ve recently been making a conscious effort to limit my smoking.
Something made me come to this site today and read through the old threads. It seems like so long ago, but it’s good to read those posts and keep fresh how miserable the whole addiction cycle can be.
Thanks again to everyone who lent an ear (eye) and gave advice or support. It helped greatly. Hope all is well.
-Bubs
PS I relapsed at the 55 day mark, which was almost exactly the time that I began to feel physically/mentally recovered from the withdrawals. If anyone is coming off long term use of sub, by 2 months you should feel like yourself again (most everything is mental after the first 2 weeks).
