Author: Dopeless Hopefiend
Posted: Mon Apr 02, 2012 11:27 pm
good luck in ur struggles oxen.
u NEED to either flush or use it. Speaking from personal experience, I was quite paralyzed if it was ever in my possession tho, there is only so long I could look at diesel, and before long it was going into my arm. and this is post detox when I wasn’t going through withdrawals!! such is the insanity of the disease. I’m not even discussing the scenario when I was starting to get sick, bcz then I obv didn’t hesitate one bit. Get rid of it one way or another!!!
I was facing the same situation about a week ago. MAybe you can learn from my mistakes and remember that this "last time getting high" could literally be your LAST. you might not wake up after this spike goes in your arm!!! So here goes: I called my sponsor crying after another relapse saying that I am done I am done I just need to go out ONE last time to get rid of my ‘reservation’ as I didn’t want the fact that I could have gotten high one last time and chose not to nagging me and bothering me on my journey through recovery, sort of like some "unfinished business" if you catch my drift. He told me what I knew he would although I wasn’t trying to hear him- to flush the drugs as to not prolong my misery and start the journey immediately. I didn’t listen and chose my way. To make a long story short I woke up in the ICU 3 days later following a brief coma with him standing over me! My "last time" almost cost me my life. This was 10 days ago btw!!! DO THE RIGHT THING OX!!!!!!
