Author: JayDub
Posted: Thu Mar 01, 2012 2:27 pm
Thanks for the replies. I went and saw a Neurologist and she said I have BFS which is basically benign twitching and that taking any test for serious diseases is pointless and would be to ease my mind only.
Although, I want to talk about the Suboxone. I have been going up and down with crazy fear feelings from reading things and I learned to stay away from the negative posts on the forums, but I cannot escape the fact that I am almost positive that both the anxiety and fear that even causes the muscle twitches is from the Suboxone. I have basically got myself down to CRUMS of Suboxone. I take such small amounts twice a day now that I cannot imagine I am taking more than .75 – 1mg a day. But here is where it gets tricky.
Today I woke up yawning and feeling a bit restless and I felt like it was time to take a VERY small piece of Suboxone for the day. Mind you, the feeling I had was definitely physically bearable but mentally I felt depressed and though that it was because I didn’t take ANY SUboxone for the day. So I took the piece and when it hit me, I INSTANTLY (right now) got anxiety. It started with my inner-thigh twitching (like something moving under my skin all around) and now I have that tight feeling in my central nervous system. This almost exact same thing happened to me last night when I took a CRUM before I laid down. Maybe the months before I was able to tolerate this anxiety? I do not know, all I know is that when I take it now I get almost immobile. 4 weeks ago when these episodes first started, I was getting severe anxiety over other things, not the twitches. It almost feels like my brain just started rejecting the medication.
I am so scared. I am scared not because of the anxiety I have now and the tightness all in my body, but I am scared about weaning off completely. I’ve gotten to 5-6pm with taking absolutely no Suboxone and never really feeling withdrawal but I always took it just in case I wouldn’t be able to go to bed that night (I do not like to take it close to bedtime). I know the second day of not taking anything is when the withdrawal is the worst, but how can this be possible? If I am on such a low amount, how would I even feel withdrawal.
What do you guys recommend? Do you recommend me continuing to see how low of a dose I can take twice a day? Or should I try to skip and day, then take a little amount?
I don’t know what to do and I keep getting weird feeling like my ears are popping and I am so stiff and tight. I can feel my heart beating in my teeth and I almost feel like I am damned if I do and damned if I don’t take Suboxone.
P.S. The feeling that I get I can only explain as my stomach muscles contracting. I get continuous rushes that feel like I have gas or sinking on a roller coaster. It wakes me up sometimes but I feel it most around the time I take my dosage. It is almost like the anxiety I am supposed to feel from withdrawing I am not feeling while taking it and it is the depression I feel when I need it.
