Author: hatmaker510
Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2011 11:48 am
First I want to say your boyfriend is lucky to have you. I’m sorry things aren’t going very well right now. So it sounds like he started messing with his suboxone dose, taking more than prescribed. Do you know if he’s still taking his sub at all? Without knowing a little bit more, it’s hard to say why he’s acting that way. It’s possible that he ran out of suboxone due to taking too many and is having withdrawals or that he’s already using. I just can’t say.
As for his idea of getting addicted to suboxone, I think of it this way: Active addiction, like you said, destroys so many things. Suboxone allows us to actually repair those things. We don’t lie, cheat, and steal to get suboxone, like we did our DOC. Yes, we are physically dependent on suboxone, but not addicted to it. And yes, there will be withdrawals when we go off it and a slow taper is necessary. But most people will tell you it’s not near as bad as quitting full agonists. Besides, we were already addicted before we started suboxone and we already have some withdrawals coming to us. But with suboxone, we are at least able to taper/wean off it, whereas with our DOC it’s next to impossible to taper off them.
I’m sure you know that if he gets just one Roxy it will lead to more. One is never enough for an addict and is always too much. That’s why we’re addicts – we can’t control our usage of it. I hope he doesn’t take it. I’m sure you’ve spoken to him about it and in the end, he’s going to be the one to decide if he really wants to end his active addiction or not.
In the meantime, please remember to take care of yourself and the other obligations/priorities in your life. I hope this helps a little bit.
