Author: snuggles252
Posted: Fri Apr 27, 2012 12:30 am
Red Velvet- glad to hear you are doing good without the Subs! I hope you are staying strong, glad to see you are still checking in, I was wondering about you.
My update: At my one week check up, I told my doctor I wanted off! My plan was to continue to wean and use only when I felt w/d symptoms. I quit, thinking it would be fine since I had only been on 8-9 days at that point. I stopped for 2 days and my system went into complete shock! I was in w/d every morning, agitated all day even after taking 4mg of Subs to help with the symptoms. I was back up to 4mg twice a day and STILL feel w/d signs every morning, and I have been feeling ups and downs all day.
I just saw the doctor today and he is increasing me to 4mg every 8 hours. I thought I could just be done with it, but I was very wrong. I started craving again, but did not cheat. I had an emotional breakdown today and just had to accept that I needed the Sub for now, and that it was OK. I was telling myself that being on the Subs was not a "full recovery" so I convinced myself that I just didn’t need them, that and the $200 out of pocket every visit with the doctor and therapist! I am out of work, and feel like a drain on my family, but I have to take care of me now.
I am submitting to the fact that I need help and the doctor knows best right now. I can think about weaning once things are stabilized. I just hope that it doesn’t make it harder to come off of Subs if I stay on them for 2-3 months like the doctor wants….
