Author: bfromindy65
Posted: Fri Jul 22, 2011 1:00 am
Hello everyone,
I was at my addictionologist’s today and a young guy was checking out and setting up his next appointment, the whole while going on about a Dr. Junig on YouTube that he thought was great and everybody who is on Suboxone should see. So after I saw my Doctor I got home and Googled him. I can’t tell you how glad I am to have found this site. All of this info is phenomenal!
I went into Rehab on February 26, 2009. That particular morning, the Methadone Clinic wouldn’t let me back in and they held a little intervention on me. I’d been using heavily, on top of the methadone, and had overdosed a week prior. That intervention was heaven sent, and don’t ask me where the "Yes" came from, but I said "Yes" when they offered me Rehab. See, I’ve been in chronic pain since the age of 22, and I’m 45. I’ve also had a severe addiction to opiates and benzos the entire time. I more or less lost the use of my left leg, along with the top of my femur and most of my hip socket from a severe staph infection that I got while having surgery to remove a surgical rod that had been placed in my femur at the age of 16. Because of all of that, my spine has paid the price and I could go on and on about the physical problems I’ve had, but I want to get to the good part.
See, I knew I was going to be one of those people that just didn’t wake up one morning, or I was going to die from some other bizarre circumstance, or worse yet, my life would just keep on going on like it was. There were never enough drugs to keep me well, because I always took them too fast. And yet, if I was completely drug free, I was going to be miserable from the pain issues I’ve got. And the Methadone Clinics cost way more than I could afford or they expected me to stay clean. There was NO WAY OUT of this.
Through the Grace of God, and a lot of work on my part, I am coming up on 2 years clean and sober. I feel like I’ve been given a 2nd (or 3rd or 4th!) chance at life. I’m an active member of Alcoholics Anonymous, and since I’ve been taking Suboxone, it sort of feels like I’m "indifferent" to drugs. I know part of that is from my "Higher Power" and from having worked the 12 Steps and part of that is from me doing what my doctor says. Not what I say!
I’m not scared anymore. I like life and I’m relatively free of pain. No more wrecked cars, no more trips to the hospital, no more trips to jail, and most importantly, no more laying awake all night long dreading the sunrise because I haven’t got anything to wake-up with.
It’s a miracle I’m here today, after all, I should have been dead many times over. Thank you Dr. Junig for making all of this information available and giving us a place to support each other. I applaud anyone who is trying to get out from under active addiction. Just remember, IT CAN BE DONE, and you just might find out life on this side is way more fun than you thought!
(It sorta feels like I rambled on here, and I’m sorry for that. This stuff is so deadly serious that its kinda hard to put into words…)
God Bless!
Brian-
