Author: jcb1981
Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2011 3:12 pm
Y’know, you’re right about me being ready to undertake this milestone. The clear difference between the last time I made the jump and this time is that this time I’m not craving opiates; in contrast, I just want them out of my system altogether. I want to be disconnected, you could say. But you’re right about the good days and the bad days. It’s completely unpredictable. Here I am on day seven and having a good day (not great, but good) while on day six I was an emotional wreck. Day five went extremely well, so there’s just no predictability about this process, honestly. Like I pretty much said in my previous post, I just want the time to pass and everything to be better, but I know it’s not an overnight process by any means. I go through stages of anger at my decision to get on Suboxone in the first place, which really stresses me out. Right now it’s all about the mind and conquering this demon.
–Juan
