Author: wncgal
Posted: Sat May 12, 2012 12:52 am
Thanks for the input and words of encouragement, ladies. I think it probably is anxiety or my mind just playing tricks on me. Who knows. I’m definitely keeping the appointment. I have proven to myself after so many failed attempts that cold turkey is just really not much of an option for me at me at this time due to some things that are beyond my control. I posted more about my history with all this mess in the "sub in the rearview mirror" section because i wanted to get opinions from people who have had success with sub treatment and have been able to get off of it ok, because i was reading some pretty wicked horror stories about the withdrawals, PAWS, etc. Having struggled with pretty severe depression and anxiety most of my adult life it’s the PAWS that scares me the most and the severe, almost crippling anxiety that has caused me to relapse every time I’ve tried to quit before. Such a mess I’ve gotten myself into but I really believe that this route is going to assist me in being able to get my shit together enough to start working on getting my life back. I like to think of recovery as recovering my life and the person I was before I became a slave to pain pills. I’m so tired of this life & I’m definitely ready to give it a go.
