Author: Living with the Devil
Posted: Sun Sep 25, 2011 10:01 am
Unbelievable – Despite my daughter, still at non-profit recovery center (since August 
, trying to go through their very loosely monitored program of in-house group sessions and outside employment related sessions, she is STILL getting the Suboxone even though they urine test her whenever she returns from being out on a pass, or so she claims.
The problem is they are not giving her the one for Buprenorphine even though I have repeatedly asked them to do so. She claims they are giving her the right test but they won’t talk to me to confirm this even though I have a legal waiver of liability to disclose her health and treatment records, signed and notarized by her. I also cannot get a call back from the sub doctor who is dispensing these to her and he also has the same disclosure waiver. Do I need to file this in court or what?
Yesterday she came home on a day pass with another court ordered in-patient addict from the facility. She has been exposed to some really hard core addicts since she’s been there. They have phones, money and cars. The facility’s protocol is the first 7 days are inpatient with no passes. After that you are allowed to go to outside help sessions provided you adhere to a 10PM curfew. Supposedly you are tested each time you re-enter and most fall off the wagon and are kicked out and returned to jail. But my daughter is slipping under the radar and I can’t do anything to stop it. I believe that the only reason she is even doing this is to appease the courts, show them she went through a "rehab" program voluntarily.
As background for those not following this, she was a Vicodin addict from 2000-2003 while her husband was fighting testicular cancer working up to 90 pills every 5 days. The day he died she wrote 2 RXs on a stolen pad from one of her many doctor shopping heists. Was caught, arrested and did 2 yrs. probation, during which time she got on Suboxone. She has been on 6 cycles of detoxing off Sub, relapsing and has been jailed 2 more times, one for missing probation appt. and then again last August for forging my checks. I have had legal guardianship of her 3 children since 2003 and am now 65 doing this alone. During this time she has lived with me and the children and has spent 365 days a year in bed during daylight hours, unemployed. She has gone through 18 sub doctors, who usually drop her for writing a bad check. 3 of the 18 have lost their DEA waiver (to dispense controlled Sched II-V) for breaking the rules.
She currently has 3 outstanding arrest warrants, one for writing another bad check and blowing off court, and two more thefts of personal property. She has stolen and pawned anything and everything she can to get her Suboxone. It has an unbelievable grip on her and she cannot do without it. She has NOT taken anything else and doesn’t drink or smoke. She pawned my jewelry, her sisters jewelry, the neighbors jewelry, her own childrens computers, game system, IPODs and cell phones. The facility she is in is 65 miles away and 2 counties over. The police here are not interested in pursuing her.
I know everything there is to know about Sub. Everything there is to know about addiction. I have very little hope left that
she will recover. I mourned her death years ago. I only see the shell of her body and those glazed pinpoint pupil eyes staring back. It is my prayer that the makers of this horrible drug and GW Bush’s DATA 2000 and all the slugs who are dispensing it for the money burn in hell.
