Author: brian__TX
Posted: Tue Oct 11, 2011 8:25 am
Hey bro–
I am feeling you dude.
Me, Substation, RSJ, Romeo–these are the guys I know a bit more about–all of us jumped at higher levels. I was at 8mg/2yrs when I jumped. It wasnt a noble jump. I had run out of pills and there was no way in hell I could taper. The one time I tried tapering I wolfed down when the going got tough. SO for me it was sort of a forced jump. But once I was out of the plane I threw away the parachute. It was one of the hardest falls ever. I posted in here and if you look at some of my posts–we are running neck and neck. I was emotional as hell Days 8-12–but my biggest issue was sleep and stomach. Today I am at nearly 2 and a half months. I feel pretty good. I still have the occasional stomach issues but am beginning to think its more an acid reflux deal that was masked by the Subs. I have a history of a deal called a spastic colon and other pleasant gastro issues. But while using Subs my colon thought it was held hostage.
Once I was off Subs my digestive tract stared coming alive–as did so many other areas that had been asleep–if ya get me! So yeah man–its a pain–but its worth it. And you can do it for sure. It does get better. For me–by Day 15 I started turning. Not a rapid turn–more like circling the airport in a storm. But the fact was I was beginning to turn. And SUb is right–for me doing things was slow and gradual. Much as my mind wanted me to "get out of here". ny body was saying–"Hell no!" So I would listen to my body–and then began to chgsallenge its resistance to doign things and soon found myself slowly getting more active. Anyway bro–you are on your way. Stay in here and post. Stay encouraged. And feel free to PM me if you like.
This group is a lifesaved for me. And it reminds me of a quote from the Jngle Books by Kipling: "The strength of the pack is the wolf; and the strength of the wolf is the pack." Stay close to the pack, bro.
brian
