Author: Ironic
Posted: Sun Dec 04, 2011 10:03 pm
| Solvaring wrote: |
| I just wanted to start a thread here on a suboxone related forum where I could talk about what’s going on with my detox and to gain some extra support and advice and to have a place to express my anxiety to people who will understand.
I just spent an hour writing this post and realized it turned into a fucking essay that nobody will probably want to read lol so basically i’ve been on maintenance for two years and i’m 20 years old. I started using opiates when i was 16. My dosage was 16mg a day and I am currently at 4mg a day. I’m trying to be detoxed by January as I have an amazing job opportunity presenting itself to me, if I follow my current schedule I will have 2 weeks at 0mg of Suboxone, minus christmas day, by January 1st. I know that if I receive the job the start date will be some time in January. I’ve been working with my doctors to bring me off, when I hit 0 they said they would give me clonidine, Tramadol, and possibly Librium depending on how badly I can’t sleep, that was the concoction they gave me when I first came to the clinic but after a relapse and near suicide attempt they suggested suboxone. It worked wonders in my life and helped me achieve many goals over the last two years. After two years clean I did relapse a few months ago on pot, it’s been a double edged sword as it always was and although addiction is addiction no matter how you spin it or the drug you take, I have never gone back to opiates and I just want this to be over. I’m just hoping that if nothing else helps, when I’m a raving fucking lunatic twitching and sweating in my bed, emptying my bowels every 5 minutes, and not eating a single thing all day or getting a wink of sleep that getting stoned will bring me some comfort and take the edge off at least enough to where I can get a meal into my stomach without wanting to vomit in my plate when i look at it. I’ll stop here, there are plenty more details to add and i’ll be giving plenty of updates and checking this regularly but I’ll wait for questions so I don’t write a bunch of stuff nobody wants to read. |
Do not let anyone, ANYONE make you feel guilty for smoking marijuana. There is nothing morally reprehensible amount smoking a joint. It won’t kill you, it won’t hurt anyone else. I am pretty certain it won’t even hurt you..I just hesitate to make a generalization..so smoking is bad, but eating it won’t hurt you at all 
You are getting off buprenorphine, an OPIATE. Something that is much harder on your body than some THC. Don’t let weed run your life. It is only a "relapse" if you believe it to be..for me, if I am not hurting myself or anyone else and it is not controlling my life, then who cares? It brings me comfort, without putting me on the streets dealing with sick and dangerous people, or without keeping my friends and family awake at night wondering if I’m safe. Also, just because someone may claim that hitting a bowl today will have you hitting a needle tomorrow..well, that is pretty silly. It reminds me of that SNL skit with the guy stabbing a joint into the crook of his arm (:
That being said, it can bring you great comfort during your detox period. Trying to come off opiates is so, so hard. Anything else is a lesser evil, IMO.
