Author: mikeystar
Posted: Sun May 06, 2012 12:34 am
wow i just realized something that you said that really stuck out to me.. that my comfort doesn’t rely in me getting high but me taking suboxone and waiting for it.. thats how i used to thin whenever i kicked before and somehow i forgot that.. eventually i will feel fine as long as i do it right and stick with it.. i really hope i can do this. i tried 2 weeks ago and failed miserably.. I had prepared myself got rid of everything and bam, woke up the next morning and first thing that came to my head was omg wheres all my stuff and what am i going to do? i got rid of everything. because i’m the type of person that wakes up in the morning super groggy (even when clean) and cold and in pain until i fully wake up and shower and eat. so heroin was perfect for that cuz i could rush to the bathroom put my arm under some hot water and cook up a shot as i would wake up and get ready. and then after i did that i would be awake and ready to go. so when i wake up i freak out cuz it’s apart of my morning routine.. what do you think would help with this? i need to just get past that morning agony and i believe i will really have a shot at going the rest of the day and make it to the night to sleep somewhat and then induct the next morning as it will have been 24-36 hours. I figure that is enough time for me as i roughly start to go into w/d’s about 12 hours after my last use and at about 18 they start getting worse.. i dunno what 24 is like yet cuz it’s been so long but i would imagine by 24 they’re starting to get pretty damn bad and after that they just continue to get worse and worse (you know that feeling) anyways wish me luck.. i really hope i can do this. bye
