Author: Orange doll
Posted: Mon Jun 13, 2011 6:28 pm
Eddie,
I am so sorry for your loss. Im glad you posted here, there is lots of good support and maybe you can find some comfort in learning more about addiction.
I too am an RN that was addicted. Thank God my husband found drugs and needles from the hospital and confronted me. I ended up in detox and have been on suboxone for a little over a year now. I could have been your fiance…It is hard to be an addicted nurse because we are around these medications all day. It is amazing how much opiate we throw away let alone use for patients. It became tempting for me and I started using the waste. Im not sure why I started doing it. I am married to a great guy and have three beautiful children. My husband begged me to tell him why I did it…..I didn’t have an answer. I have struggled with depression my whole life and believe that played a part. I just wanted to feel better.
Don’t blame your self…addiction is a deadly disease that can effect anyone. There is a thread on here called What is Addiction that may be helpful for you to read….
Take care of yourself, love, orange doll.
