Author: tearj3rker
Posted: Sun Jul 03, 2011 10:11 am
Johnboy you’re a fellow synth / keys / studio nut? It’s been a hobby of mine for a while as well. Unfortunately some great equipment has been sold over the years because of my addiction 
I found amphetamines + music didn’t work out in the end. At first they were a godsend. I was SO productive, and I was pumping out 3 or 4 tunes a week. After a while I think my brain was getting scrambled though and I found myself getting into these weird loops where I’d tweak a single synth patch for hours on end trying to get it perfect. Eventually I was so unproductive I gave up. Then came the hard realisation any time I tried to write music without it, I just couldn’t do it. The motivation and inspiration was gone. It took about 4 years before I could do a tune again.
Just like any drug, really, I guess. Promises the world … but
And I hear ya about the concentration. Esp some of the psych meds messed with it. The thing that’s messed up most of all though is my memory – name memory, and organisational skills (I’m always double booking and forgetting things now). I think the amphetamines had a lot to do with this though. Whenever I used to relapse on opiates, I’d forget any new names of people I’d met recently. Just names though, not faces or conversations.
Funny you mention improvising. Some of my most emotional improv sessions were alone when I was in mild wd’s from opiates!
