Author: SuboxoneIsNotAToxin
Posted: Fri Apr 06, 2012 11:22 pm
Slipper, thank you for the welcome. It helps a lot knowing I’m not the only trying suboxone to help bring me back to that normal feeling. And I hate using the word normal cause everyones version of that is different and I’m not entirely sure I know what it is for me. I just know normal for me is a hell of a lot better than how I was feeling. This whole past week suboxone has basically put me on my butt for the first few hours after I take it, I feel I have my dose almost dialed in as to where I’m not feeling that tired opiate type high, but that seems to dissipate now rather quickly as I get my dose more accurate. Still not sure if I should take it in the morning or evening. So far, so good. I’m starting to feel comfortable in my own skin now without wanting to crawl out of it. I’m starting to feel like my old self and its incredible. Just to wakeup like I use to and feel optimistic about the day ahead is priceless. Im in the category that believe addiction is a disease and if it can be treated it should be treated, I personally believe that opiate addicts are already at a predisposition for self medicating cause our brains don’t produce enough natural opiates to begin with and even if I did have completely normal brain chemicals, that all completely changed once I started to abuse opiates or any other drug your brain is always going to be looking for that. I honestly didn’t want to believe that, I was thinking after a few months I would feel normal again, but that didn’t happen, so I gave it a year.. still feel the same.. then another year, still this weird permanent subtle withdraw feeling is the best way I can describe it. It’s been a little over a week and all I know is I’m starting to actually starting to live my life again instead of just being present for it. -Dave
