Author: Babydoll
Posted: Mon Jun 06, 2011 4:36 pm
Day 5 of NO cravings. Whooop!!! 
Reason I am kinda counting is because since starting my treatment I’ve not really gone all that long before having a smoke and coming back around the block to start Subs again. I have confession though – I chickened out of the NA meeting that was scheduled for this evening. Will try again next week as I really would like to see what they are all about and if they can assist me. Feeling very happy and positive. I am liking this new way of life. This is the first month in a hell of a long time that I can say we still have lots of money left in the bank account. Normally all of my disposable income would have been spent by this time and there’d be very little left of my husbands pay packet. I have even been able to purchase a train ticket so I can go and visit my parents on the 18th June. I have not been back home for 18 months!!! And the reason why? Because of our addiction to Heroin! I cannot wait to see my mum and dad! I also could afford to have a basket of flowers delivered for my mum today (she’s not very well so I wanted to cheer her up). I could never do little things like this before because I never has the spare cash! So stupid. Definately have no stomach issues now either 5 days in. Felt a little flushed at one point this afternoon but it soon passed. Fingers crossed I won’t need to increase the dosage after all as i am feeling more stable pysically and also i am definately in a better mental state than the previous/early weeks of treatment.
Take care folks xxx C xxx
