Author: Romeo
Posted: Thu Jul 14, 2011 5:55 pm
Babydoll, you have a disease, it’s called addiction.
Addiction is what’s causing you to act the way you are. I spent a good deal of time with my addiction counselor just trying to understand addiction. It helped me a lot to understand my "enemy". Once I started to understand how he (addiction) was working in my life, I was able to recognize when he was trying to trick me into doing something stupid and I was better able to fight back against him.
Addiction is patient, addiction is cunning, addiction is able to make us do things that we know we shouldn’t be doing……it’s an insidious disease Babydoll.
http://suboxforum.com/viewtopic.php?t=3087
That’s a link to a thread on this forum where a few of us discuss the nature of addiction. Hatmaker has included links in that thread that are VERY interesting. I remember one point in particular that explains how addiction actually "disables" or inhibits the area of our brains that are responsible for judgement. We addicts have brains that do NOT work like the rest of the population.
Have you got in with a counselor at all yet?? Have you tried any AA/NA or SMART meetings. I think they might help you.
Take care of yourself.
