Author: brian__TX
Posted: Sat Aug 06, 2011 10:18 pm
Hi–I am on Day 11 of cold turkey jumping from a 2-year, 8mgs (2 x 4mg Suboxone) per day. I considered tapering and even called my doctor. But as she would not call in any pills–as she had before–something clicked inside me. How long was I going to allow my life to be dicated by a pill? How long did I have to be at the mercy of a doctor and whether or not a scripr would be called in. So I decided right then–I quit. So I did. The last 10 days haventg been easy. For me days 5-9 were the worst. I still havent had a good night sleep. Went through all the usual symptoms. Lack of sleep is the worst as far as I am concerned. The point–if you are ready to stop you can make it. But you have to want your life back worse than that orange pill. Today is the first day I have been able to eat a full meal. And today was the first day that I actually laughed spontaneously. Here is the deal–your journey os your pwn. I csan only tell you that today is teh first day I felt normal. Still tired, still diarrea issues–and a ways to go.
I have no idea how your jump off will be–but at some point if you want off this stuff you have to be committed and ready for a fight. But guess what–most things worthwhile are worth fighting for–like not having to lie to the people who trust you, likie not selfishly spending money that the family could use, like not counting down the minutes until you can take the next pill–or worse–until you run out. I know that for me I made the right choice–even if it happened because I ran out of pills early. I didnt know how it would go stopping cold at 8mg per day–but I can tell you that at Day 11 I am so glad that I did! God bless all who are fighting this–you CAN do it. Whatever motivates you in life–THAT is your reward. For me it was my wife and children. I’m still tired–and hope I can sleep tonight. But whether I do or not–I know that each day gets a little better after Day 10 or so. Stay with it and fight. You are worth it–and the people who depend on you are too.
