Author: VariTech
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2012 10:42 am
To reiterate… I want everyone to know that I have no negative feeling toward Suboxone, or Buprenorphine respectively. It’s given me something I didn’t have for a long time. A real shot at this thing called life… And living it! Freedom from all the bullshit that comes with needing high doses of an opiate multiple times a day to be normal. All it took was 1 8mg sublingual pill to be fine. I made my own mistakes from being on it for so long when I know I didn’t have to be. I made my bed, and I laid it it! I thought to myself during these past 3 weeks off sub "if I was on oxy, ida been done through this shit days ago!" but I stood fast and perserveered because I did it to myself. I think that’s a big step to recovery is taking responsibility for your actuons… Taking a stand.. . And finally… Taking action! Yea, 3 weeks later I still don’t feel 100%, but it’s 100% better than I was in prior days. Know what I mean?? I made my own decision… I did it for her… And I did it for me! It’s been hurting my relationship, but I have faith in our love. My moods are fluctuating, and it’s tough at times to hold onto good feelings… And good mood. I try… I swear I do. She understands… But she is also human… So it takes a toll… And we will work back to how it used to be. I told her last night, now that I put that sub in my past…. I can love myself… In turn be able to love her more completely and with all I got. It took me to see one tear roll down her face when she found out I was addicted to suboxone…. And I haven’t looked in the rear view yet! People… It’s a mind game… Mind iver matter…dont let the uneasy feelings, and bipolaresq moods sway you… Again… Stand fast and take it one day at a time… Vent like me… Get it all out before the bottle cap shoots off! Why do you think I’m here too? I’m 21 days in… 3 weeks… 10 hours… 42 minutes. It’s not easy…. But it’s never IMPOSSIBLE!.
