Author: Tripspot
Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2012 4:23 pm
Just wanted to place my story here as it is so similar in every way. Like yourself I jumped off suboxone 8 mg 2 weeks and one day ago to the day. I have been on the subs for 2 years and like urself couldn’t help all the lies and deceit I kept and told my wife. The only difference is I also have a 4 year old boy who had been my saving grace In this whole hellish situation. For the duration of my sub use during those two years I was prescribe 8 mg a day but constantly took more then I was prescribed. I took 16mg one day 24mg the next and 8 maybe the next. So u never really was on a stable dose. I used to lie I my doctor constantly and tell him I lost them or that my car got broken into or even one time I told them that they took them from me at the border cause I took them outta of the case.. Anyways to make a long story short I wa abusing them daily and it was becoming a point in my life where it was getting out of control. One day, I just woke up and went to my sons room and whispered into his ear when he slept that I was going to turn myself around and that I was gonna better out life’s for all of us. I called my work and took 2 weeks vacation. I then books to tickets for My son and wife to fly to her moms 1100 miles away to stay while I went thru this hell. That night I confided to my wife that I had been not telling her the whole truth about my suboxone use. She did know I was on it but I had told her the year before that I was tapering the entire time. Which was totally untrue. So in the end she did thank me for te truthfulness and being the wonderful lady that she said shed help me out anyway she could. And so it began…
So march 11 2012, I took my last dose of suboxone. 4mg I’m the morning and 4mg at night. All I had to get me thru at the beginning was about 15 pure codeine pills, and 15 seroquil. I waited and waited for the withdrawals to happen. By the 4 th day still not a thing.. I didn’t know what Was going on and so I took my last of the codeine pills the night before… Welll… That was the problem.. I was just covering my receptors with another opiate.. So in turn I was masking my withdrawals. The 5-10 day were the hardest thing that has ever happened to me in my life. My symptoms included everything everyone talked about here on a giant scale. I won’t sugar coat it, it was nearly and Id underline that word if I could cause its the truth. I thought abou suicide even tho I would never and I thought about just giving in and calling my doctor. But being the father and the partner I needed to be for my family I couldn’t. Anyways I won’t ramble on to long but I will say that it is day 15 now and I do still have symptoms. The worst for me being the insomnia that doesent seem to pass mixed in with these horrible horrible legs pains I get whenever I try to relax to sleep. It is my worst symptom. I never really ever believe in god or anything for that matter but after this whole ordeal I really had to have something in my corner I could talk to for support. And I did pray and I swear it helped.. I wrote this on here as the poster who did who started this, to get it off my chest and help whoever I can as the person who wrote this did. I’ll try and keep everyone posted. Sorry didn’t have time to spell check or preview sorry for all the grammar mistakes.. Gotta get back to work
