Author: Lillyval
Posted: Wed Oct 26, 2011 3:25 pm
Thanks for your reassurance everybody. I’m glad to know I’m not the only one who went through the rage thing. I left out of my previous post that I went to the bar because I was in a rage at my husband. I was in bed, but my adrenaline was pumping so hard that I felt like superman (angry superman).
I also cry over nothing and everything. I can’t even watch the news anymore. Today I went out to give out food for Foodshare. I was fighting back tears because and I didn’t want to arrive there a total mess like I did last time. I have to say it got me out of myself pretty quick. Then the Mom of the little boy who died two weeks ago (another thread) came through the line and I knew I needed to be there to support HER. She’s in recovery, too, and really struggling.
Afterward I went out with friends and was actually laughing and having a good time. So I just feel like I’m going to make it this time. I keep remembering what someone else here said about their detox….whether your purging, sweating crying or what have you, it’s the toxins leaving your body. So no matter what is happening, even if it’s bad, I’m just holding on to the fact that the Sub and it’s metabolites are leaving my body for good.
