Author: autononymous
Posted: Sat Oct 15, 2011 12:16 am
Hi, I am sorry about your dad. But hopefully he will be ok. My dad had a heart attack when he was about 62 years old–as far as heart attacks go it was probably about the mildest they get but….still serious. He had hypertension, trouble staying at a healthy weight, and a long history of heavy smoking (although he did quit smoking completely and STAYED quit at some point in his mid-fifties). After his heart attack he took his time deciding what he would do about going back to work and ultimately he decided to retire. I’m glad that he did so that he was able to enjoy the rest of his time and focus on his true interests and creative goals. So…a heart attack, of course, is not a good thing, but it is an event that will remind us of what is truly important–our lives, our health, and the lives and health of our loved ones! And spending time with our loved ones and treating each other as best we can. I’m sure you’re aware of what I’m trying to say here–I hope it doesnt’ sound trite or condescending to you. I hope your father will share many more good years with you and the rest of your family.
As for how you feel strange about how you are reacting to all this–you know, I think you shouldn’t worry about that. We all react differently to events like this, and not always the same as we thought we might. I won’t say either that it’s not possible that the sub has some effect on your emotions and how you handle a situation like this, but as the others said, sub is not the only factor. There is no one "correct" way to feel about something like you are going through with your dad right now– I think you should accept however you feel and just do the best you can to take care of your dad and your family and yourself. I know what you mean about sometimes feeling the need to cry but then you don’t. But I agree with how hatmaker put it about emotions in this situation being complicated. If you are doing well on your sub dose, then, probably now is NOT the time to change anything. It sounds like you are doing ok with the sub, from what you said at the end of your post.
I also encourage you to post here for support. Again, I hope your dad will be ok and back home soon!
