Author: jonathanm1978
Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2012 8:07 am
You can obviously see the difference. The first pic, I’m glazed, like a honey-baked ham. Glossed-over eyes, sunk-in cheeks..no healthy look to my face at all.
Granted, I’m not a very big person as far as my build..I’ve always been mostly average size..but I became skin & bones when I was pilled.
Stupid shit …..done it. Close calls with law? yep. Friends who watched me drowning in my own self-indulgence…of course.
But I guess my story is one of a VERY few that has a damn good ending…though my story isn’t over..
It’s not really much of a struggle for me these days to maintain myself…as long as I can do what I just took a pause from typing this to do…at the very least once per day. Right now, I’m on my 75 8mg-2mg film per month, and I’m happy. I could probably still do O.K with 1 or 1 1/2 per day, which I’ve actually done a few times when I would be so busy that I forget to take my meds..but as long as I’ve got insurance, and as long as Suboxone is being made and available, then I’ll probably be on the stuff. I don’t want to try and see if I’ll make it if I stop…it’s not worth the risk. Since there’s not any long-term studies showing bad things happen with extended use, then I’m at liberty to say that I’ll continue use for the rest of my life. I’m to the age now (33) where I have the arthritis and aches and pains of the years showing, or beginning to show..and I’d much rather deal with it this way than to risk what I WAS before, in that 1st photo.
