Author: SubSandwich
Posted: Tue Nov 01, 2011 3:20 pm
Hey all…
I have been lurking this forum for a longggg time, and just recently decided to register. A little background about myself: I’m 26 and have been addicted to opiates nearly all my adult life. I started when I was 16 and haven’t really looked back. As with most, it started abusing lortabs, vicodins, then percocet, and finally gave way towards roxies and oxymorphone. I have been in the restaurant business and realized that abusing these meds at work would give me much better tips as I worked much more efficiently on them and could deal with customers with a smile no matter what!
Well flash forward to me now: I’ve been on subs for the past 2.5 years after I realized that enough was enough and that I was hurting the most important people in my life by stealing, lying, cheating, and just generally taking advantage of everyone that cared about me just so I could get my next fix. Subs were an absolute and total lifesaver! I felt like I had found my "calling" and everything in the world was golden. I wasn’t breaking the law, I was stable, and most of all my loved ones had started trusting me again. What could go wrong, right? Heh. My doctor told me I could stay on subs for virtually the rest of my life, and my opiate-craving passenger inside me tended to agree.
Anyways, I got to the point where I was constipated out of my mind. I went to the doctor and he literally told me I was full of shit by showing me an x-ray of my intestines. I hated waking every morning and having to put that little orange strip under my tongue. I hated being dependent on this fucking stuff. I was a prisoner. After finding this site for the first time about a year ago, I tried just dropping it cold turkey and soon found myself gravitating back to the suboxone. The withdrawals were intense. But after doing some research on long, drawn out tapers, I put the gears in motion and jumped at .5mg/day. And that’s where I am today: day 1 with no Sub. I don’t have any withdrawal symptoms to speak of yet, but I know it’s coming.
I’ll be posting here daily with updates on how it’s going. And hopefully one day my log can help somebody else as other’s have helped me reach this point in my life. If anyone else is currently going through withdrawal (or taper) feel free to post here and I’ll reach out. Thanks!
