Author: tearj3rker
Posted: Tue Nov 08, 2011 5:00 am
Opioid withdrawal, especially buprenorphine, can be unpredictable. Cravings are definitely unpredictable as well. They love catching us off guard. Don’t forget this experience, as it’ll put you in better stead should you choose to taper again.
Sounds like you’ve made a decision that you’re happy with in the end, and given you were really close to scoring, then you made a sound decision. "Harm minimisation" 
Our recovery’s goal-posts are always changing, as is our definition of what a relapse is, and what isn’t.
I’ve just found, in my experiences trying to get clean, it’s impossible to know how close we are to relapse, and how much capacity we still have to refuse. As long as I kept my cravings at bay, using every tool I had, eventually they would stop and I’d be left very relieved, and proud. I suppose my post was encouraging you to try and reach that point.
Most of the time I didn’t fight my cravings hard enough, and returned to opiates. Choosing Suboxone over other opiates is a smart decision on your part. I’d be proud.
No regrets!
