Author: tsciant
Posted: Wed Oct 26, 2011 4:30 pm
People people people. I sit here at day 26 off suboxone, freedom tastes really good. And I did it the "WRONG" way. I was on 16 mg, and jumped right off using a 9 day taper of 8-8-8-4-4-4-2-2-2. I write this only to offer hope for those wanting to stop or in the midst of stopping. Did it suck? Yep. Bad? NO!!!! I was on suboxone for 7 months, daily dosing of 16 mg and sometimes 24 mg. (I was prescribed 24, but understood the ceiling). Now I will be honest and tell you that to stop, I knew I couldn’t do it at home. Any slight discomfort and I run to the dope. Sub is dope. Sorry. That’s just a fact. So to avoid doing that I decided to do my detox in a residential 30 day treatment center. However, with that said, my WD process was NOT that bad. At all! Was it easier because I was locked away, probably, but in a way that also made it harder because I could not leave or do active things, and was allowed NO immodium, no vitamins, no meds except ambien starting at day 5 because they could see i was not sleeping. All I can say is thank god for hot baths. The worst symptom, really the only symptom I had, other than insomnia, was leg pain. Yeah my skin crawled a little for a couple days, but my legs did feel horrible for about a week. At bedtime, I was take a 10mg Ambien, jump in the scolding hot bath for 10 minutes, then go to bed. Each night the ambien kept me asleep a little longer. First 2 hours, then 2.5, then 3, etc etc. By the 30th day in treatment (21st day off sub), I got my first full night of sleep, and with no ambien.
Everyone definitely exaggerates this process, because we are addicts, but I just want to share that if this addict can stop, ANY addict can stop. I’m the weakest and most vulernable to discomfort you’ll find. And remember, I jumped right off. No slow taper. No skipping. Today is day 26 off, and I feel pretty much 100%. Still crave dope, but its all mental at this point.
You can do it!!! It’s NOT that bad. My doctor told me I was CRAZY for going in somewhere to jump right off. She said I wouldn’t make it. SHE WAS WRONG. Money hungry sub doctors. It kills me how much they don’t know their own prescribed dope.
If you really want to quit, go to treatment. I don’t know many addicts or dope fiends that can "taper off" dope. If you got put on suboxone you are prbably an addict, and stopping suboxone is not ANY different than trying to stop heroin, methadone, oxy, or anything else. I needed help, and I got it. And it worked. I’m so pumped!! Freedom from dope. If I pick back up at this early point, it’s only out of choice. I feel great.
The first week is not a fun time, the 2nd week can be a fun time, the 3rd week freedom infuses into your soul.
Hope this helped someone. Probably not, but I hope i didnt just waste 5 minutes.
