Author: Feeb2011
Posted: Sun Oct 09, 2011 10:29 am
Catlady, when I read your post, my stomach sank, my heart ached. I too remember all too well, sitting on the edge of my bed, crying and saying "who am I, where did I go, where am I going to go and with who?" I personally don’t remember the person I was before opiates, but I do recognize a depressive person. Not only does addiction make you feel bad, it makes you feel guilty and ashamed. The way you were treated by the original doctors and nurses added to your shame and guilt. The lack of support from your husband now is prolong those feelings. I’m sorry catlady, that you are going through this but at the same time, it wasn’t as if you woke up one day and decided to change your life for the worst. To me an addict, unless they have really hurt someone, should NEVER apologize for themselves. Marriage is for better or worse, in sickness and in health. If your husband was able t help you during your surgeries and other illness, you need to expect the same help with this. Its a sickness and is life altering. That all being said, you have it in you, obviously, you’ve already been through a lot. Please don’t doubt yourself or your abilities.no matter if we are just words on a computer screen, we are here for you. In sickness and in health!
Good luck and be strong, like you have already proven to be.
