Author: Bboy42287
Posted: Fri Oct 07, 2011 2:34 pm
| johnboy wrote: |
| why sweat it. were all going to get it!! b-boy". we all say" get plenty of exercise,work out. but the harder i work, i sweat and feel w/d?? |
Yea more so what I am saying Johnboy is the more activity I have in my day the sooner my pain comes back as in my meds warring off quicker in that aspect. But not WD if I wrote that and it is my quote, I must have messed up what I was trying to say.
Had a group today and the topic was Denial and we pretty much just free styled of that went around sharing about our stories and parts where denial might of played some type of role. And I didn’t realize till today that I still have some denial about my addiction and recovery. Talking about it really helped and hearing me saying out loud was a big part. Because I usually hold a lot of my issues inside me and put on a brave face so people close to me don’t worry about me. I understand I gave them that reason to worry but over time I denied that I did give them a reason because I didn’t want to say yes I did but today I did say yes I did do that. I don’t know just wanted to share that with you guys and if you get some time just think about some of the things you might have had denial about at one point in your addiction or recovery. I didn’t realize but denial for myself played a huge role in my addiction, in the sport factor alone. I didn’t want to deny that baseball was over and I no longer was getting those invites to private tryouts for farm clubs of major league teams or giving a tryout option for the show case team each year I was on for 6 years straight. Which fueled my addiction in many ways and I guess this group really brought me back to what started my down fall with opiates in the first place, anways thanks for your support guys and I will give you a update on how things are going in a couple weeks.
Brent
