Author: SometimeIdiot
Posted: Thu Apr 12, 2012 10:27 pm
Ladies (i.e., slipper and honeybee415),
Thanks so much for your thoughtful and supportive posts. I am very grateful.
slipper, it sounds like you’ve been very fortunate with your husband. He must love you very much, or be eligible soon for sainthood! LOL I wish I had that from my (ex) spouse. Her support and love would mean the world to me, but it ain’t gonna happen and it’s out of my hands for something to control. So be it. I can’t let it stop me from doing what I know must be done.
honeybee, kicking my habit is, like you say, the start of a new wonderful journey. It’s just scary, to face sobriety after all these years, and to know that I’ll be feeling all the pain of the divorce and my poor decisions in full force and effect. But gotta face the music, I guess. Thank you for your input about dealing with depression while using sub. I appreciate that. To answer your questions, no I haven’t found a doctor yet, but I have a list of two dozen in the area who will treat with sub. I plan to spend tomorrow calling around to try to find the right doctor with the right “fit� for me. Everyone’s different, but for me, I want to find a doctor who wants to treat me with sub with the idea that I will eventually not need it, i.e., I don’t want to be using sub for the rest of my life. As far as when I plan to start, as soon as I can find the right doctor! ASAP! I’m sick and tired of my current life and feel ready to change, however terrifying that may be. I want to get back to the person I was. I want my wife and family back as a single healthy unit. That may not ultimately happen, but it’s my hope, and I do know that there is absolutely NO chance of that happening unless and until I get my own life in order. So baby steps and first things first.
Again, thank you so much for your responses and support. Means a lot to me.
SI
