Author: ajjforever
Posted: Mon Jul 25, 2011 1:57 am
Let me just say thanks to all of you who take the time to post and especially Dr Junig for creating and maintaining this site. I am a wife and mother of 2 who has hid a pain killer addiction for almost a decade. I have a good job, beautiful family, never any legal problems – but I could just feel that my time was running out on all of them… I was buying all my pills on the street and when I couldn’t find them, I started stealing from family and friends… Anyway I was fortunate enough to get into a Doc who had an opening for me to enter the Suboxone program. I started taking it last Thursday. My dosing has been so messed up. As an addict thinker, I took 16mg right away thinking more is best. Boy did I get sick and then I took more to "cure" myself and got even sicker. Last night (Saturday) I took 4 mg at night and then another 4 this morning and OK. I took 8 mg tonight at 10pm and still feel good.
Has anyone else had to take their doses at night because of how it made them feel during the day? I have a job that requires me to be at my best mentally and have others whom I supervise and I can’t be "high" or even slightly groggy at work. At about 4 pm today I started feeling agitated and like I was maybe going to withdrawal, but I was so afraid to take some until bedtime.
Anyone have any insight? My thoughts are probably all over the place in this post, I am a nervous wreck; this is all so new.
I just want to say one more thing, I was reading Dr Junigs post about Capping and I have to say that I was one of the lucky ones who got in for my addiction. I began by telling a nurse at work about my problem and it took a week to actually get me in to a place that could help. Went to an EAP therapist who couldn’t believe I was sitting there without some type of medical treatment for the amount I was taking, so she sent me to my NP, who couldn’t really do anything except give me a legal scrip. There really aren’t too many resources for folks like us who recognize that we have a problem and want to get help before we hit bottom. It just seems like such a "system" failure… My loving Father in the heavens was looking out for me, plus I have good insurance…
