Author: Romeo
Posted: Mon Aug 29, 2011 8:55 am
Thanks guys, I appreciate the insight so very much.
I do plan on going to NA still, but I’m only gonna hit my home group meeting on Monday nights for a while, it’s a great meeting. I love the Tues. and Thurs. night meetings, but I’ll only be hitting those on nights that my daughter doesn’t have math homework, she needs my help with her math or she’s gonna fall behind. Right from the get go, I did not like the Wed/Sun and Fri/Sat meetings, but I kept on going because I thought it was what I was supposed to do?? I know better now. I’m not getting a sponsor anytime soon, if ever again.
I did one on one counseling while on Suboxone, once I quit Suboxone, I pretty much stopped going to see my counselor. I’ve seen him a few times since being off of Suboxone and because of this close call, I’ve got an appointment to see him tomorrow.
Moderation……what in the hell is that??? LOL!! One thing that sticks in my mind like glue from my one on one days with my counselor is him ALWAYS saying to try to learn to live my life in balance. I struggle with that one mightily, no doubt.
Ladder said, "We are supposed to be having fun!!!", I couldn’t agree more, I took my daughter out Saturday. We went out to eat, we went shopping (girly stores, yuck!) and we hit the arcade too. We listened to that great Katy Perry cd on the way there and on the way back…..best time I’ve had in a while. Getting that intial OOOmph to go out is a little difficult for me, but once I get going, I enjoy myself.
Recovery is an interesting process. I get so impatient with it sometimes…..I want to be recovered already!!! But, it just don’t work like that. That’s OK, I’m sticking with it though.
