Author: Brady12
Posted: Wed Mar 28, 2012 9:18 pm
Wow. Thanks for sharing your story. I have to ask, how were you able to turn it around? It sounds like you fell pretty far and picked yourself backup, I give you all the credit in the world for that by the way, great job. I hope you realize sharing your story is helping me. What is your experience with Suboxone? How long have you / were you on Suboxone? Did counseling or group meetings play a part in your recovery?
I have to admit a part of my problem in moving on from this is that I have left myself a mess financially. I rang up close to $20,000 in debt just on getting high. I had myself in a pretty good position, personally, professionally, and financially at about age 27. At that time I moved from Boston back to my hometown which is a place I had a lot of drug connections and friends doing the wrong thing. I haven’t gone bankrupt or ruined my credit exactly but I will be paying for my oxy habit for a long time financially. I really beat myself up over that, paying those bills every month hurts. Plus the $1,200 i pissed away in 5 days last week isn’t helping me feel to hot.
This week has been an awakening as it progresses, the combination of having a pregnant wife and now being back fully functional at work has been stressful, I was "out sick" for 2.5 days last week and everyone keeps asking if i am feeling better now. I feel like such a fraud and a liar after last week. It really sucks. I need to get that out of me somehow and just accept that it is what it is.
It goes to show how addictive and dangerous this stuff is, like your story of having everything going great i was in the same boat at one point.
I will be headed back to my sub doctor Friday for my check up. Hopefully everything will be out of my system at that point, it will have been over 7 days. It will be interesting to see what type of schedule he keeps me on going forward, i figure i am probably a weekly visit for a while which i deserve.
Anyways, thanks again and i am really glad to hear you are with your family and doing well. I hope i am in that same spot down the road.
-Brady
