Author: Romeo
Posted: Tue May 31, 2011 2:42 pm
Well, I was going to update this thread Sunday after something happened to me, but I didn’t and I’m not even sure why?? Anyway, here it is…..my wife’s family came over Sunday for Memorial Day and one of the people who came had some coke AND some pills……my two biggest nemesis’s (nemesis’ ? what the hell is the plural of nemesis???), he offered me both, even though he knows I’m in recovery……I said No Thanks and it honest to God didn’t bother one bit all afternoon. He was there all afternoon and into the evening, but I didn’t crave. I had already made up my mind that I wasn’t going to use and that was that!!
Going to meetings has helped a lot, but the thing that really broke me, as far as another relapse, was the events of the last few weeks on this thread. I was honest about my use, my second relapse, and some of the members really let me have it. I mean I got a good couple of whacks upside my head and that was EXACTLY what I needed to bring my recovery to the next level. I wasn’t being honest with myself…….
So, that brings me to Lilly and SetMeFree…….you’re honesty inspires me!! I am SOOOOO proud of both of you for being honest and open about the issues you are still dealing with. I know it’s scary for you guys to feel like you do. Shit man, I don’t know what I’m trying to say to you guys. I think I’m trying to tell you to continue being honest, face your demons, when your demons start to win, share it with someone. Talking about it helps, it seems to take power away from it.
Remember, I worked pretty closely with a counselor for the 3 years I was on Suboxone. Admitting to someone else that you have a problem is hard as hell. You two have NO idea how in awe I am you, I know how painful it is to speak like you guys just did.
Goodness gracious, I’m all over the map with this reply?? I want to be able to say the perfect words to help you both, but I don’t know what the perfect words are??
I know my recovery has been a process. It started 4 years ago when I got on Suboxone and it continues to this day, it’s work….hard work. I’ve made progress, but it has been hard won.
Listen, I love you both and I pray for all you guys regularly!! Please, whatever you do, don’t give up!!
Thank you both for sharing.
