RELAPSED

OK, Jenzo, you didn’t slip up because of marriage problems, you slipped up because YOU ARE A DRUG ADDICT!! Your addiction has been sitting there, waiting patiently for its opportunity to screw you with your pants on. You have to understand that you didn’t slip up because of marriage problems, your addict brain and your addict thinking want you to think you slipped up because of mariage problems. That’s how your addict brain gets you to use. It was marriage problems this time, next time it’ll be because of a hard day at work, the time after that it’ll be because…….insert excuse here.

I knew weeks ago that you were headed for a relapse when I posted in your thread to be careful about getting off of Suboxone when you’re not ready. Your reply back to me was almost cocky and that’s when I knew you were in trouble. Cockiness has preceeded all 3 of my relapses!!! I wanted so desperately to help you, but I knew you wouldn’t listen to me….I also wanted to reach through the computer and smack you because I knew where you were going, but I also know that you sound just enough like me that a smack wouldn’t have done you any good. I’m a stubborn SOB and I tend to learn my lessons the hard way, not to insult you, but you strike me as being similar to me in that department?

I TOTALLY hear ya on the feeling bad, but not so bad about the slip up. My first slip I felt exactly the same way. I was all like, "It was just a little slip, calm down folks, nothing to see here", then my next slip came about 2 weeks later. The second slip was a lot worse than the first, I ended up going through wd again, not terrible wd, but wd nonetheless.

I see where you’re already saying that you may slip again. You’ve already opened the door on your next relapse Jenzo, that barn door is wide open and you’re fixin’ to go through another relapse……I’m gonna say it’s not gonna be too far down the road either? You’re playing with fire dude.

You asked what is wrong with you, YOU’RE SICK JENZO, all us addicts are sick. Our brains don’t respect drugs, we keep fooling ourselves into thinking we can use responsibly……I know I sure as fuck can’t use responsibly……how about you??

Listen, I documented all three of my relapses here on this forum, they’re all under this one thread: http://suboxforum.com/viewtopic.php?t=3867

I wonder if you give it a read, if you’ll see any similarities in your thinking and mine.

Once again, I truly apologize for jumping knee deep in your shit, but that’s what it took for me to get my head out of my ass. I honestly hope you can see that I’m only doing what I know to help you. If I didn’t care about you at all, I wouldn’t have spent the past 20 minutes typing this up for you.

Take care of yourself jenzo.