Author: nogroovin
Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2012 12:33 pm
My first post here, but I’ve been reading the forum for a week or so and it’s filled with a lot of nice, caring people. I appreciate that, as I’m sure many folks here do..
I won’t bore you with the details of my addiction- we’ve all seen, heard, and experienced plenty of that already.. I will say that I wish I could claim that I got hooked on opiates as a result of some old injury, surgery, or even chronic pain.. If I said it I’d be lying thru my teeth.. Nope, nothing like that at all.. I was never abused as a child, or went without, or even struggled- actually things always came pretty easy to me (until I tried to quit these darn groovers that is). I’m the only one to blame for the mess I’ve created- I took these things knowing the risks but thinking I was gonna be the exception.. I thought I could be the one that could actually control these things..lol.. Silly huh? It didn’t take me long to figure out the devil himself cooked these pills up and I was in way over my head..
It didn’t take me long to figure out I was in over my head but it sure took me a long time to figure out how to stop.. After years of abuse, failed attempts to quit, many withdrawals & relapses I drug my sorry butt into my family Dr and asked for help.. I’d known about suboxones but I didn’t know that my family Dr was licensed to treat.. I didn’t know how lucky I was- all I knew was that I had been snorting 20- 30MG percocets ("blueberries") a day just to avoid being dope sick and I hadn’t done any for 4 days now and cold turkey wasn’t going to work much longer.. I figured I could hold out long enough to get a referral to a sub Dr.. Little did I know I would walk out of their with a prescription for 16MG of subs per day and within an hour I had hope again..
Sure, it’s expensive but I managed to keep it together long enough that I hadn’t lost everything.. I’m lucky in so many ways and I’ve been off of "Blueberries" for close to 3 months now and have managed to taper down to about 12MG of subs most days.. My Dr would like to have me down to 45 strips per month on my next visit (29th of March) and I think I’ll have no trouble getting there.. We’re definitely doing a slow taper and I’m glad my Dr’s doing it this way.. I’ll do whatever he wants, but he says he has the most luck with a slower taper..He has a brother that practices there with him and he uses a much faster taper.. I’m lucky (there’s that word again) I got my Dr instead of his brother..lol
Anyway, I’ve rambled enough, just wanted to introduce myself and thank everyone here.. This is one of those forums that probably has a HUGE number of lurkers and I wanted to thank the people that openly post- it’s a huge help..
