Author: laddertipper
Posted: Fri Aug 26, 2011 6:28 pm
| setmefree wrote: |
| This will make three days in a row of taking only one dose of ~0.25mg!!! That seems like such a miniscule amount, yet I know it isn’t! At the same time, it’s a hell of long way from 8-12 + mgs/day!! I feel that my receptors are really getting a little ‘clear’ time in, with the half-life of Sub being diminished and with dosing only once a day at these small doses. While I have considered just going ahead and trying to quit, I feel just crappy enough in the morning to go ahead and dose. And that’s okay…..I know I’m making progress! Interestingly….I had a huge wave of emotion hit this morning. It was over one of the videos that is circling around with the deceased man in the street and his dog staying at his side…. Oh brother!!! It just got me going!! I bawled and bawled, until my own little dog got real worried about me!! It’s been a while since I have felt a big rush of emotion like that and it was, well, cleansing and it felt good, in an odd sort of way. I used to be like that, before abusing opiates…..crying at Kleenex commercials and whatnot, crying during worship at church, crying about something small that my kids did that made me proud, etc. Now, if I could just my motivation going!! I have a feeling this will be the slowest to return. But I’m okay with it for now….no choice. As long as I can find enough motivation to get done what needs done, that’s just gonna have to be enough for today. I long for the day when all this is over and I can feel it within reach like never before. And I’m grateful!! Have a good weekend everyone! |
Wow, woman, you are just blazin’ along like nobody’s business! I do recommend that you let your body ‘catch up’ before you jump….but then again, I think I’m doing the longest taper in history, lol. I completely identify with the crying thing, but thinking it’s also kinda nice to be crying. 
You will get your motivation back. I promise! I’ve got mine back, for the most part, and much of the time, I have extra. I guess that’s one reason I’m going so slowly…I don’t want to start dragging all the time again.
Just a thought…if you are dosing in the morning, you could wait until you feel fine on .25 and then start dosing later and later each day to space your doses out more and more. You could also try dropping to .125 before jumping. For some reason, it wasn’t that tough for me to drop from .25 to .125, but that may be because I let myself get used to the .25 first.
You are insanely close already! I really am excited for you!!
laddertipper
