Author: marktjc
Posted: Fri Oct 14, 2011 3:09 pm
Thanks guys for your kind wise words. First Breezy, let me tell you that as I am in law enforcement I just cant take the risk of telling my boss whats going on. the reason for this is really quite rational. Say, I arrest and charge a felon. He gets a good lawyer who does some digging and low and behold this officer is not only an addict but struggling to get better. These cases would get thrown out of court so fast and I would be labelled forever. I have thought about it. Dont get me wrong. It would probably make things so much better internally but I just cant take the chance. For now I am trying to come as often as I can and just get through the basics.
Jimmy, 7 years ago i was playing profesional hockey in Germany, hamburg actually (if you look online you can actually see my pitiful statistics). I was more of a physical player than a point getter, anywho I was coming around the opponents net with my head down and WHAM…LIGHTS OUT. Not to mention 2 severely crushed discs C4 and C5 in my neck. career over. I came back to Canada where I rehabbed or tried. Fell into depression as I was severely injured and not able to live out my dream anylonger as a hockey player. I found a doctor who sent me for the MRI, the CT scans, met with a great surgeon who said that as there was still fluid flowing through my spinal canal he could not do the surgery. Ill never forget that day. I looked forward to him saying to me "Im gonna fix you up good". That never happened. I messed around with different pain meds, staring with T3 and believe it or not my sons codeine cough syrop as it made me feel nice and warm and I could get comfortable enough to get some sleep. That didnt last long. I asked for something stronger as this just wasnt doing the trick. I was given Percs. WOW. Did they ever make me feel good.However after a 2 years they werent giving me the same nice feeling. I knew about oxys as I had seen so much abuse of it in my job but still decided to ask the doctor to set me up. I gave him the best song and dance about no sleep. extreme pain yada yada. 2 40’s a day eventually went to 9 40’s a day as prescribed. Well I dont think I ever followed those instructions once and eventually started eating 5/6 ata time, chewing as I drove to work. By the middle of the month I was out. Months of excuse, I lost them, my dog ate them, I dropped them into the lake at my cottage and my all time best, I made up a letter to show the doctor that I was promoted and had to go out of town for 2 months for work and of course would need 2 months worth of oxys. He filled it alright, but also called my work to see if I was out of town for work. The answer of course was no. Last week when I went in to try to swindle him again. He said your a liar and you will not get another pill from me. I had already planned on starting suboxone at the end of the month but wanted to have a nice send off with a few more days of oxys. Well it didnt happen and here I am in day 3 of suboxone. Feeling about 65%. Still craving a little but actually trying to talk myself into what used to be in my life. The joys, the fun, the looking forward to things without always having to think of a new story to tell the doc and having anxiety about rather he would fill it or I suffer until the next script is due. Oh ya, I forgot to mention that I have probably visited every clinic, ER in this area with every story under the sun to atleast get a few pills to get me through to the next lie. So Jimmy….That long winded story is why my doctor cut me off.
Did anyone else go through such crazy ways of getting more pills. Just wondering
