Author: cajunmeme
Posted: Wed Jun 01, 2011 9:28 pm
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Timetostop,Good for you.
This has been encouraging reading this.
I’m freaking a bit but trying to think positive. I’ve only been on Suboxone for 2 months. Many years of abusing opiates and LOTS of them.
I’m on 8mg. 3 times day. I have lots of pain and Dr. told me I could take up to 4times a day. I said what if I run out? He said,to call the office. He also said he would have the script this month set for 4times a day. He said he couldn’t change the script that day b/c it was already set in the computer. I found that odd.
Anyway,so Ive taken the 4 times a day a few times. The Dr. office called this morning and said she had to set my appt. back for 2 weeks b/c he has to go out the country. I told her I’d be out of meds and she said to try to stretch them.
This is the same Dr. that "REFUSED" to help me with the Ins. to get the Ins to pay for the meds.
I’ve had problems since the first visit but he takes my Ins for the office visits so I’m trying to stick it out.
So,I had to really think about this b/c I’ll be out in 2 days.
My addict thinking went into addict mode. I got to thinking how I have a Dr. that I knew would give me meds and I wouldn’t use my Ins and go to a different Pharmacy and on and on.
I do NOT want to go back to the opiates and I do NOT want to play those games anymore.
Even if I was to do that and without it going thru my Ins. there is a very good chance he could still find out. On my first visit he had a record of all the drugs I’d gotten the past 2 yrs. even those I paid cash for. So,I’d be taking a big chance of getting busted when I do go to my next visit.
Not too mention,the next 2 weeks I’d be so worried if he found out. Just all that damn bad addict behavior.
I’m hoping that maybe,just maybe,since I’ve not been on the Subs too long it won’t be as bad with the W/D.
These past 2 months have been the best for me and I don’t want to go thru this with W/D.
Thank you so much for allowing me to vent.
Marie
