Author: tearj3rker
Posted: Mon May 07, 2012 3:05 am
| Romeo wrote: |
| I keep forgetting to mention this, I guess that’s because I haven’t been dwelling on it?
Since my close encounter with drugs of the third kind the other day, I haven’t become obsessive over getting some pills. For a period of 20 or 25 minutes the other day, I was locked and loaded, I was going to get my hands on those pills and use and even the fact that they were taken out of my proximity usually would not have been enough to fully unlock and unload me. Had an episode like that taken place a year ago, I would have been well on my way to a relapse. This time, however, it all kinda just fizzled out. I’ve had ZERO serious thoughts about getting a pill. What a change from a year ago!! For any of you struggling with cravings, whether you’re on Suboxone or Methadone or nothing, work some kind of recovery and it will get better. It may take a while, but it gets better. Wishy and qhorsegal, I’m glad my previous post gave y’all a laugh. (She’s sitting in MY chair as I type this!!) |
Woohoo progress!!!
I like to think of it this way. Every time we overcome a challenge and refuse the desire to use, and successfully abstain, the healthy "recovery" circuits in our brain get strengthened and come closer to overpowering our old addictive short-circuits. On one level, recovery is a process of our brain re-growing and re-strengthening healthy circuits. Sooner or later we reach a stage where it becomes more natural to abstain than it is to indulge. We always still have that "addictive circuit" (hence the 12-step idea of always being an addict, which is one way of putting it), it’s just the pathways around it get stronger every day we stay clean.
Eventually, stupidity, complacency or periods of unexpected stress and illness (HALTS?) are the things that can bring us undone regardless of clean time.
