Author: melijm
Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2011 10:14 am
So far I am loving the Sub.Just completed my first month.Now that I am stable at my correct dose,I have to say I feel great! I do have some annoying side effects.The ones that stand out are sweating and joint pain and swelling,mainly in my hands.
I have tried a couple anti depressants in the past in hopes that they would help me not want to use,namely Wellbutrin and Pristiq.They did absolutely nothing for me and the Pristiq was hell getting off of.
I am having thoughts and feelings,just ordinary stuff,that I havent felt in a long long time.Not even when I was using and thought I was happy.I am now optimistic and look forward to things.Even simple things,like hanging out with my hub and kids watching TV or whatever.The other day after the kids went off to school,I tore my house apart cleaning,shampooing carpet etc..It was like the best day.I totally enjoyed it and didnt have thoughts of guilt that I am a loser and should be at a "real" job etc…I have always worked out of the house and for the last 6 years have been seeing clients at home but always had that nagging guilt that Im not good enough and I should be at a real job etc…Well,I dont feel that anymore.Im pretty content for the first time in years and not to mention free from my addictive thoughts and behaviors that would plague me 24-7.I know the reason I feel the way I do is directly related to the Sub.I have always said that they should prescribe opiates off lable for anti depressant and mood elevating reasons but of course you would build a tolerance and it would all go down hill.I feel with Sub you get those benefits and you dont build tolerance or crave more and more of it.Anyone else feel the same?
