Author: Desi
Posted: Fri Sep 09, 2011 10:22 am
My new doctor told me yesterday at my first visit after he has consulted with my other addiction medicine doctor and my regular MD that I should be on subutex rather than suboxone. He explained to me the difference, but, I need to know more in "laymans" terms. He told me that I don’t need a saftey valve. He also explained to me that he would not mind if I were on it for the rest of my life since I have been so stablized on 24 mill for a couple years. He knows he doesn’t have to take urinary tests either and that I would only have to come in once every six months which is fantastic to me. I am what you call a "low maintenace" patient that does not need a fuss and attention. Being on 24 mill a day, what it does for me is make me feel like a "normal" person. I do not need to seek out other form of medication, not even alchohol, to feel normal. For most of my life I lived day to day like something was missing. I don’t know how to explain it. I am sure that I must have inherited some bad genetics in the brain area and lack the chemistry that normal people have to live a happy life. That was what was so frustrating to me. I had no reason to be depressed. I hated antidepressants because they did nothing for me and I was not depressed in the first place. I just didn’t feel comfortable in my own skin. Now, I am the happiest I have ever been in my whole life and I am not taking away any credit to my creator God Jesus who has done so much for me and I am grateful for all that he did for me in my life like delivering me from alchohol and cigarettes and a pretty rotten narcistic unrealistic attitude and a selfish self centered life and breast cancer also. We are imperfect humans beings born into a fallen imperfect world and I don’t put any blame on anyone, especially God.
