Author: DepressedOne
Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2011 3:23 pm
Thank you so much for your support hatmaker. It’s nice to know you understand the blackness of severe depression. I’m not sure when I start because I haven’t decided. I’m just so afraid of being physically dependent on something my whole life. I haven’t taken a Subutex for four months and these four months I’ve been in this black hole. I got over the withdrawals and that lethargic state of mind that sticks around for about a month after quitting, but my natural depression is back and nothing seems to fix it or even eases it.
I do have a question for you hatmaker. Do you think my tolerance is back to zero since I haven’t taken it in four months? And would it take less amount of time for my body to become physically dependent(not addicted) if I decided to go on it? I have always wondered that but I can’t seem to get the right answer. And just in case I didn’t phrase my question correctly I’ll give an example: Say it took me 2 months for my body to get physically dependent on Subutex to the point I would withdrawal without it. Since I haven’t taken it for 4 months, would it still take 2 months for my body to become physically addicted again or less?
Anyway, I’m still debating if I want to take this for the rest of my life. I’m young so I have a lot ahead of me, but I don’t know how long I could last with this depression that won’t ease.
