Author: pirana
Posted: Fri Jul 29, 2011 9:47 pm
| Lillyval wrote: |
| It sounds like you, me and others here have had a similar experience; going on full agonists, staying out of WD, but still feeling kinda crappy on pain pills, and feeling much better back on Sub. Despite that, I can say first hand that your hypothetical plan can work. I jumped from 2mg, took full agonists, decreasing the dose every two days or so, and stopped after about 12 days, with virtually no physical withdrawals. *Disclaimer: don’t try this at home, kids, for most people taking full agonists will trigger a relapse!* The problem was I immediately went into a crushing depression, and realized I wasn’t ready to be off Subs in the first place. When people say you need a plan to stay clean they are not kidding. Years of therapy and 12 step work doesn’t count, because that is what you did in the past. Even if you haven’t had a desire to use in years, wait until your receptors are laid bare and see how you feel. I’m not saying this to be a jerk. I just want you to know that moving forward without the Sub safety net is a monumental task. |
It’s nice to know that it can be done anyway. Do you think the depression was just PAWS from no more sub or just your life circumstances? About ten years ago I figured my only hope was methadone. I was only on it about two months at up to 60mg at the end. I had a friend who was on it for 10 years & when I told him I was on it he begged me to run from it. So one friday morning the clinic nurse called me to ask if I was coming in for my dose as they were about to close & I told her I was done with it. Even after only two months on the stuff I went through the most horrible & hopeless depression in my life for at least three weeks. I would hope that I didn’t have to go through that again from the subs but to tell the truth for about the last year i’ve been getting somewhat depressed anyway.
