Author: RsjxRsj
Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2011 8:40 am
I’ve about come full circle with the cigarette thing dammit. I jumped at 8mg about 45 days ago and when I did I immediately noticed the smokes were aggravating things, making me feel awful and I put em down, real fast. I was smoking between 1.5 to 2 packs a day at the time of my jump and by the 4th or 5th day, just like autononymous said, I was lighting smokes, having a drag or two and immediately putting them out. I had a pack last me a week and I thought GREAT! I’m gonna quit smoking too!! NOT. Sure as I started feeling better, I started smoking a ‘lil more, and a ‘lil more… At this point in time, a pack will last me a whole day, sometimes I smoke just a half pack in a day. I have no intentions of quitting anytime soon, but I also don’t see getting back up to 2 damn packs a day either… One thing at a time… You seriously make me wonder how differently things would have gone had I at least slowed my smoking a while before my jump. Really interesting. Something to think about for those about to jump… Coffee, I’ve not gone back to coffee, I was a serious coffee drinker before I jumped and found out real quick it was a bad, bad idea to continue. I may have 1 slow cup if I’m dragging ass in the morning, but then it’s decaf after that, if at all. I can’t even drink Tea after noon anymore, that bums me out, but I can get decaf tea too. My body is so sensitive to everything now, even things like an aspirin, I had a headache the other day, took an aspirin I had on my desk and I actually felt it. I felt an aspirin?? Holy shit. Alcohol, I rarely drank while on subs, maybe a margarita at dinner with friends or something, and I remember one night sometime after my jump, I was desperate for sleep and slammed a few (ok more than a few) jack ‘n cokes, not even thinking about the caffeine in the coke etc. So I got to be awake the entire night and experience the whole process of the alcohol wearing off and the hangover setting in. Terrible, just terrible LOL. BUT I was reminded exactly why it is I do not drink.
-RSJ
