Author: Melsie
Posted: Wed Nov 23, 2011 10:57 pm
Thanks everyone. I haven’t gone to any extremes yet. And I don’t think that I will. I’d rather suffer through this than screw up everything that I’ve worked so hard to achieve. I’ve tried to find suboxone via friends, but no one had any. I managed to get some Tramadol, though, which is helping a bit. I know that tramadol can be addictive, but I doubt I’ll have any issues seeing as it barely covers the withdrawals for me.
I’m afraid to go to the ER because I have no insurance and am already in debt to them anyway. I really appreciate your help, though. I know that I’ll live through this. Monday isn’t that far away. I will be STALKING that worthless piece of garbage until he has to see me.
About the doctor on call, yeah, well, apparently that doctor doesn’t have the ability to write scripts for Suboxone! I finally got through to them today and all she said was ‘sorry, i am not able to do that for you. I am covering for his other patients (the non-junkie ones), not the patients involved in Suboxone maintenance.’ She sounded so cold about the whole thing. I hate how we have to be treated like something less than human just because we’ve made mistakes in life, which is something that actually all human beings have in common and should be willing to sympathize with.
I know I’ll get through this. I am actually thinking about going to the Suboxone clinic and just lying. I know that’s a terrible thing to do, but I thought they were there to help me, so hopefully lying will get the job done.
I also forgot to add that I have exactly 2mgs left total. I’m sorry if I am not answering questions well. It’s been difficult for me to do even the simplest things in this condition.
Does anyone think that going to the local clinic and lying about my situation (as in telling them something along the lines of ‘i was getting subs off a friend, but he got cut off, and thus, so did I, so I need the rigidity of this program to keep me from relapsing") would be okay? I know that lying is horrible, but I feel as if those clinics should be there to help people in times of emergencies and when they are desperate. I feel like I should meet that criteria right now. I would obviously stop going to the clinic after four days when I can see my doctor again. Ugh. I wish I could afford a real doctor that actually cared for his patients.
