Author: laddertipper
Posted: Mon Oct 10, 2011 9:39 am
| tearj3rker wrote: |
| It’s been over a week now and I’m not missing drugs at all. No cravings, no desire. Something has changed. I hope it’s not just the tx messing with my head.
Just to give u guys a picture of where I’m at. At the moment I’ve taken a semester off my studies because of the treatment. I’ve also had to stop working. Being an Australian and having a social life which goes hand in hand w/ drinking, I’ve retreated from my friends as I can’t drink on treatment, and it’s hard to keep up a front long. 4 months or so no alcohol so far, not that I was a big drinker. I can’t deal much with busy public places. Now I’m not using I have so much time on my hands and so little to do. I will admit that I have no life right now, but I knew this could happen and I know it’s temporary. Going to my girlfriends, we try to do what we can, even if it’s just going for a walk. But I try not to spend too much time there cos I don’t want her getting sick of me as I’m a whiney screwloose atm. I think this is something only people who’ve done a stint of chemotherapy or something similar would understand. Maybe it would be good for me, learning to sit with myself with no distractions for the next 3 months. If I can get through the rest of tx without using, I’ll know I have no reservations about relapse. t |
Congratulations on getting a week out and getting comfortable in sobriety again.
I really can only imagine how tough it must be to go through this sort of thing. The best way to get through difficult times is to stay busy, yet your body is weak and you and fighting a huge physical battle. It must be such a mental battle as well!! I guess the only thing I could compare it to was being on bed rest during pregnancy and how much I hated that. The only thing that helped me was reminding myself that even though I was doing nothing, I was actually doing the most important thing! This is true for you. Baby yourself. You deserve this and you need this. This is your chance to shed a huge weight by getting past the Hep. Try to think of yourself and your health as your most precious thing; this is your time to get well; you are laying the foundation to the future or your choice. You probably will have to remind yourself of these things many times a day to help avoid falling into a mental rut. I wish you the best!!!
laddertipper
